Did you sleep?



A really restless, bad dream --almost nightmare-- last night. I sure hope it's a one and done, and not the start of another series of these stress dreams I'm often subject to. This time, the national situation had made things impossible to do anything other than survive each day, and I forgot about Christmas. I noticed on Christmas eve what day it was, and I looked around: no presents, no holiday anything, no tree. I hadn't even gotten a yearly ornament. I felt like I'd been gutted.

I woke up desperately unhappy. Those who know me best know that Christmas is extremely important to me. Faith, family, friends, food-- the gathering, the love, the sparkle and joy. To have been so immersed in mere survival that I would forget this? Wow. 

I guess that explains how I feel about all of the turmoil. I'll try to re-set my day, starting with going to church. We'll see what comes up after that.

Hug your loved ones. The abyss is before us, I fear.

C

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