Full-steam ahead-- ready or not!

Well, it's started again: 3:30 am wake-ups because there's just too much on my mind, and sleep deserts me. At least the laundry is done. Stress is a real motivator, eh? 

The last time I felt this way, my father was dying, and I could not do anything about it. I guess that's the grim answer to my question the other day, regarding what happens when the fixer can't fix things. I lose my appetite and can't sleep. Chores and so on took til 9:30 last night, and I fell asleep in my chair. I woke up at 10:10, then put in a load of laundry. I got five hours of sleep-- enough to function. So be it.

In the meantime, we are keeping things rolling around here. Holly is getting sort of used to this wacky bouncing around thing; I pray it's helping her be resilient. She's a trooper, to be sure. But even little ones need a sense of stability, a "for-sure" that they can depend on. That's my goal. She is the most important piece of this puzzle, and the only one I can actually have any real impact on or for.

Today, I have a conundrum: I have to get my snow tires on, and that part of Holly-care is covered. Getting back to the shop to retrieve my car is the challenge. I will see if I can prepay, and they can leave the key in the glovebox or something. I can't walk back to the shop (walking is gonna suck the first time), because Holly will be with me by then. But I'll figure it out. I always do. Geoff will try to get home by 4:30, which is decent, but it's a half hour after the shop closes. Sigh. 

I worked on next week's Holly-watching schedule, and there's a few shifts that need coverage. I hope we can find people to be with her while I have to be at work, G has to work, we all have work... it's a bit of a challenge, but again, I will figure it out. 

In the meantime, it's twelve degrees, snowish, and I'm ready for a nap. I wish. Coffee is now my bestie. 

On the positive side (and yes, there is one), we got a lovely tree in the house yesterday. I got home around 3:15, we were at the tree place by 3:30, and the tree was in the house, set up, and G was off to job #2 by 4:10. We are, if anything, efficient. There's nothing warm and fuzzy about the approach we had to take, but the tree is in. The goal is to put lights on it this evening. Wish us luck! 

One way or another, we will prevail. No other option, right?

Have a good day,

C